Thursday, May 31, 2012

一个人怀念~


夜深了~人静了~心累了~放下了~不想了~
要睡了~哈哈!!  :P

看着窗外
黑黑的天~静静的街~
突然很怀念以前~
怀念我们一起玩的日子~
一起赶功课,一起熬夜,一起逛街,一起聊心事
一起这样一起那样~

也怀念刚远去的假期~
和你一起的时候~玩笑的时候~

时针一直转~
时间一直少~
心情一直低~

多想一直保持着现在这样~
多想一直守候着~
多想一直拥有你们~
多想以后的日子都有你们的陪伴~
现在甚至有时会不想毕业~
害怕失去你们~
害怕一个人~
害怕没人可让我在无聊的时候给我烦~
真的很害怕一个人~不要一个人~
不想只有我一个人~
我怕!

人都是贪心的~自私的~
拥有了就不想失去~
在一起了就不想分开~
开始了就不想结束~
最后会变成依赖~
赖着你们~变得不独立~变得不勇敢~
我也是时候学着放手了吧~
学着不强求~学着独立~
不管在爱情还是友情~~
都要学会面对别人的离去~
没人会一直陪着你
一切都要靠自己~
加油~~

离别时一定会的~
不知以后当我们都七老八十的时候,还会不会出来聚一聚呢?
那时一定很感动~
想哭了~


朋友!!
我不会忘记你们的~
不管距离多远~时间多长~~
永远永远~
心中的回忆书都会有你们的脚印~
大家加油哦!




少了~


少了~
真的少了~ ~


学校见面的机会少了~
彼此相处的时间少了~
面书聊天的次数少了~

少得可怜啊~呵呵

为什么呢?
最近很忙吗?
还是觉得无聊了?
因为距离远了?

偶尔看到你在线上,
想找你,但不知要聊什么~
但还是会希望你能找我~
甚至会等~ ~
可是你都没找我~
看到你下线了,感到很失落~
我为什么就不能主动点呢?
我也不知道~

这样也有帮助到我~
因为现在的我~
想你的次数减少了~ ~
烦恼的次数少了~ ~
期待的心情也少了~


以后的我们~
见面+相处的时间会更少~更少~
没多少机会了~

所以会很珍惜现在能拥有的~
会好好利用时间~
彼此可能相处的时间~和~机会



突然很怀念以前~ ~
一时的感触~~哈哈!! 
真拿我没办法~~ /.\


Tuesday, May 29, 2012

SEM 6 !!

Sem 6 started last week Tuesday (22/5/2012), but today only got my new ID project! 

*scare scare*
*excited*

what so excited is because:
This is a live project and it is a competition too~
We have to design a budget hotel at PJ state~
It is a group work~ first time do ID in group~
We have to finish it within 1 month!!! *what?? so short!*
We will compete with another class~

1st Price   : RM 5000
2nd Price  : RM 3000
3rd Price  : RM1000

The 1st price winner will further join in the meeting with all the contractors, architects and other who involve in this project~
It is a very good chance for us actually learn how to work with other peoples with a real project, because once you win the competition, the hotel that you design will be build! How nice it is~~ ^.^

Complete within 4 weeks??? seriously??
haizz~~totally not enough time~
because of that~once we get the group, we had our group discussion and start divide works~~
so rush and so many thing to do~~hahaha~
and~~~
I start it today leh~~so weird~~

here is it!
simply brief about the project
and 
END OF STORY!


quickly stop it since the working passion still there *
*cont. work  T.T*

Thursday, April 19, 2012

惨了

惨了...

我好像越陷越深了~
快不能自拔了~
怎么办~ T.T

怎样才能让我不再对你抱任何的希望~
怎样才能把现在的我带回去之前的我~
怎样才能让我停止这一切的不可能~

为什么你会让我陷入这种困境~
为什么是你~
为什么我会这样~

我是不是真的喜欢上你了?

我会希望每天都能看到你
希望每天都能和你聊天
就算只有一封我也会想收到~
若有天没和你聊到天,我会在想为什么?

我会想知道你今天在做什么~
我会想知道你在想什么~
我会想若你有什么烦心事可以跟我说~
让我可以安慰你,鼓励你,关心你~

我是不是真的喜欢上你了?

几乎每天我都会想这些问题~
觉得这样的我很傻很蠢很笨很讨厌~
为什么我会这样?

我是不是真的喜欢上你了?

不想这些东西让我的心动摇~
不想让自己陷入不可能的可能里~
不想让自己变得软弱~
不想让自己变得这样的不定~
不想让自己活在幻想里~

我只能每天对自己洗脑~
每天都说不可能~
每天对自己灌输让它淡去~
不让自己拥有任何的希望~

在人前表现出对你不在乎~不在意~不喜欢~
刻意控制自己~
会不会很明显?会不会太超过?会不会太刻意?

对你
我~~~
尽量不去表现的积极
尽量不让自己拥有希望~
尽量不去注意你~

我能做到吗?
这样好吗?

我很乱~

Sunday, April 1, 2012

最近怎么了?


最近有个人~
让我很烦~


最近怎么了?

每天都在想那些问题~
每天都在想-你是怎样想的~
你是~~~~


我是怎么了?


会去想~
你为什么会这样说~
为什么会这样做~
为什么这个为什么哪个~

会去想~
如果我们~
如果你~如果我~
如果这个如果那个~

会去想~
如果真的在一起~我们~


会去幻想,会去期待
会去注意,会去等待

开始
会去期待你来找我~会去等你回我~
偶尔会去注意你~

开始
慢慢的改变~
把自己变得更好~
虽然有时会和自己坚持的有所矛盾~
但还是会继续~因为觉得那是好的~可以做的~没坏处的~

常常想东想西的~
偶尔很讨厌,觉得这样的我很不适合我~
每次都和自己说 -
不要去想了~
再想也没有用~
不可能的~
顺其自然~
慢慢来~
但过了一阵子,我又开始想这些东西了~

以前暗恋一个人时都不会有这样强烈的感觉~
以前都不会酱烦~
是不是当时他又女朋友~而我也不认识他?所以才没那么强烈?
懊恼!无奈!讨厌!

这就是喜欢和暗恋的差别?

有时还会想~
我真的喜欢你吗?
我还不了解你就喜欢你吗?
我们才认识没多久~
我怎么可以这样?
会不会太随便?会不会太肤浅?会不会太快?
我是不是真的能够开始一段恋情?
我能做到吗?我可以吗?
我会怕这个怕那个的~担心这个担心那个~
害怕开始~害怕结束~
害怕答案~害怕失败~

我应该是还没准备好吧~
还是我有恋爱恐惧症?

如果我能克制一点,对自己严格一点~
应该可以把对你的感情洗掉吧~
好吧!
淡掉~
淡掉~
忘掉~
忘掉~
我相信我可以的!

爱是什么?

爱是什么?
喜欢又是什么?
经常这样问自己~


怎样才是爱?
怎样才是喜欢?
经常这样问自己~


这算是爱吗?
这算是喜欢吗?
经常这样问自己~

爱是喜欢的升级版~

爱是很烦人的东西~
爱是很难捉摸的东西~
爱是搞不懂自己为什么会这样~

我是期待爱情的女孩~
我是害怕爱情的女孩~
我是不懂爱是什么东东的女孩~

Sunday, March 18, 2012

~Von birthday!!~ 1/2/2012

<3 <3 <3
1st of Feb is one of my best friend Yvonne's birthday!
But we cant gather together on that day~so we postpone her birthday celebration to 4th of February~

ppls who join!
xiwen aka panda (my papa)
huiru aka pig (my mama)
yvonne aka lalat (my pet)
kent aka chicken (lalat bf)
weizhong (路过的)

story started with~~
One upon a time, panda, pig, chicken and i plan to have a special birthday celebration for lalat~
we discuss in a secret group~
we were planning what special thing to give her
where to celebrate it
how to call her out
how to do this how to do that~~
we all discuss in detail just to make the event special and smooth~

(jump to 4/2/2012)

I met up pig and panda at USJ9 one of the cake shop, and we choose one big birthday cake and one small cupcake~
we went to Daorae Korean BBQ restaurant to pass the cake to the worker~
Then we went to mcd to prepare our birthday card for her while waiting for chicken to come.
we wrote down the message we want to tell lalat~
pig <3

panda <3

me~
decorate the card~
when chicken came,we pass the small cupcake to him.
after no long, lalat sms us said that she reached!
we quickly ask chicken hide himself in the mcd and 3 of us go meet lalat at the restaurant.

we went into the restaurant, the worker lead us to a table of 5 set of tableware, she saw it and ask us why there's 5 set of it, we simply lie to her so that she wont suspect us.
We make some signal to chicken while we ordering food, and he came in as a waiter of the restaurant and send the cupcake to lalat, but she didn't noticed it, after few seconds she saw it was him, she cried!
coz we din tell her that he got come~
1st surprise for birthday girl~

such a lovely couple <3

Suddenly we saw weizhong and his family came for dinner~we call him, he feel shock also, and he came and join us for awhile~
we eat we chat we laugh we take photo~
weizhong and his sis~
yummy~~
epic pic here~laugh 'sei' me!
#####
after finish the meal~
we ask her to eat the cupcake~
chicken went to toilet~
and he back with a birthday cake~
2nd surprise for the birthday girl~

the candles cant be light up coz of aircond~
we taking care of the fire so that she can blow after making wish~funny huh~
cutting the cake!
the last surprise!!
the CARD!
happie girl~
questioning~~
refresh back all the memories~
after that~
is time to went back home~
we hug each other, giving our last wishes~<3
then~
end story~

hope she will have a memorable 20th birthday~
friend forever! <3<3<3